*My Only Sunshine*

Today was the sweetest day ever! I went to my doctor's appt (she put me on 2 more meds, so now im taking a total of 5 different pills, and they are so hard to keep track of). My doctor offically stated that I am no longer "high risk" pregnancy but "at risk "(apparently there's a difference). Anyway back to my point.....

I didn't get an ultrasound today, but the doctor did use that thingie to hear for the baby's heart beat...and the cutest thing happenned. Evertime I talked the baby's heart would beat super fast....and then the doctor told me to stop talking.... the baby's heart beat slowed down. The doctor then started to talk and still slow heart beat, we then both stayed silent, and still slow heart beat....then I started to talk again and the baby's heart beat started beating super fast again....The doctor said that the baby seems to know my voice, and gets excited when she hears it. I cried!

I am so going to be in love with this baby, I just can't stop loving her! My miracle baby~ my one and only sunshine I know I should stop referring to the baby as *she* but I can't help it....I feel so strongly that I'm having a girl....even though my hubby disagrees with me.

I bought a baby book name at the christian book store today...looked through the whole book and couldn't find 1 single name that would do my liitle one justice! Just kidding, but seriously I couldn't find any names that I liked. The one name that I do like, my husband doesnt.....I haven't even thought of boy names....I know I'm way ahead of myself, but I'm just so ready fo rall this! Anyone have any ideas of names? I prefer names with biblical meanings (i.e. god's gift) or something like that. I'll take any creative suggestions!

*Motion-Of-The-Ocean*

I think my baby's getting motion sickness......sex crazed me is afraid to have sex! I've read and am even being told by friends that sex does not hurt the baby......but I don't think everyone understands that me and jhonnie are pretty rough in bed!

Just last night, he was on top and I swear the motion of the ocean was so rough that I hit my head on the headboard of the bed! If it's that rough, don't you think the baby can get sick? I think I should start oversharring with my doctor, just to be on the safe side.....

I do have to admit, I never thought I could get hornier than I already am, but damn I crave sex! I want it ALL the time, and I read in "THE BOOK" that your sex drive does increase when pregnant. My husband even thinks I've gone overboard! We'll see how he feels once I can't have or spread em anymore!

*Doubled-In-Size*

I woke up this morning, and headed to the bathroom to brush my teeth when I felt as if something was a little off.....My stomache. I was trying to wash my face and realized it was uncomfortable because my stomache was pushing against the sink =(

My husband even made a comment......

j: hon, was your stomache that big yesterday?
me: i don't know...does it look bigger?
j: yeah, like it doubled in size over night.
me: *sigh*

I still believe that this will all be worth it as long as i carry this baby to term, and give birth to a healthy bundle of joy!

yay for me....3 more days and I am officially in my second trimester! I have another doctor's appt tomorrow morning, then we're off to buy some maternity close. All my clothes have shrunk (at least that is how i prefer to look at it)....and i am starting to get looks at church.....that look where everyone is not sure if i've gained weight or if in fact i am pregers....but it's all good, cause once my little one is born......imma be too hot to trot...and jules im gonna be a hotter milf than you...just watch...j/k you know i love you!

*No-Way*

Dude, I was just watching this waterbirth thing on the internet....and just saw this mother pooping as she was giving birth to her baby! I've heard that it can happen, but I'm freaking out here....I do not want to shit while pushing my baby out!

Any mothers out there that wanna give this mother to be some personal stories? I would really appreciate it!

*I Saw Her*

Ok, I keep referring to my baby as *she*....but that's what I feel like I'm going to have......several more weeks till we can see the gender on the ultrasound. I had the ultrasound, and everything seems to be going ok......baby is moving around, and her heart beat is so strong!!!!

Unfortunately, the picture I have from the ultrasound is in a negative form so I cannot scan it....anyone have any suggestions?

I want this baby in my arms already!

*Im Going To See My Baby Today*

I had a doctors appt yesterday....btw, I switched doctors since my miscarriage...i'll get into that next time. Anyhow, I thought that I would be able to get an ultrasound, but it did't happen, however I am getting one today....yipee!~!~!~!

My blood pressure is high again! I don't know what it is with pregnancy and my blood pressure, but the doctor is going to be putting me on some safe meds starting next week.

Not much to post about......except for the fact that I'm going to ee my baby today, and finally know how far along I am....we're not too sure, I didn't pay attention to the dates. Spare a thought or prayer for me today that me and the baby are healthy!!!!! Thanks all!

*Too Hot To Blog*

It's 108 and humid today, so I can't get myself to sit long enough to write anything.......Also it's starting to become uncomfy to sit for a long period of time.....i hope that's a sign that the baby is doing well inside my tummy! Anyhow, I'll try and be back tomorrow.......I kinda wish I was in hurricane territiry, to get away from al this heat and humidity!

*Bitter Sweet, Literally*

ok, so I've been a little hush hush about this, because I wasn't sure how I felt and I've been dealing with the fears of "what-ifs".......but I just can't keep it to myself anymore! I'm pregnant again!~!~!~!~!~! Some of you guys might be thinking,"damn, already?" I know that was the first thought that came to me.

Just a little re-cap of the events for the past few months. Late January early Feb, we found out that I was pregnant. Everyone was so excited for us, I think my mom was more excited than me! Things were going well, had good ultrasounds, up until I was about 3 1/2 months. I started spotting and when we went in for the ultrasound, we found that there was no heart beat. At the end of that week I had to have a D & C. That was around the end of april. The doctor told us to wait 1 menstrul cycle before trying again. I'm hoping that's what we did, because I did have a very light period in may, but nothing for june and now for july.

So.....after all the hot and steamy sex encounters with my hubby, I noticed I was feeling a little off, if you will. I was feeling the nausea again, and catching a cat nap here and there (which I never do), and the boobies were starting to hurt. We went into the medical clinic today (they give FREE pregnancy tests), and I peed into the little cup, and saw the two magic pink lines appear!

The results are a little bitter sweet, just because of the fact that I was really heart broken with the miscarriage, and now I'm worried that something might go wrong or even another miscarriage. Im going to try my best to be positive. I guess I am jumping a little ahead of myself...I mean I havent even seen my doctor yet.....

Anyhow, just couldn't keep quiet so I had to share! Damn, I guess Jhonnie and I really do get it on, huh?!

*Tagged Myself*

Since everyone else was doing them...thought I'd bite off the idea and do one myself:

10 years ago: Actually I think it was more like 12 yrs ago......Lost my virginity to a guy I had a crush on since the 6th grade...relationship lasted about 2 yrs, and we're still the best of friends...love you steve!

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5 years ago: paid the down payment on my mother's car with my first paycheck.

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1 year ago: bought a house with my hubby in Fresno...damn it's already been a year?

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yesterday: worked, cooked, blogged, had Wendy's fries at 12 am, got some dick and went to bed.

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tomorrow: going to church...which is usually the whole day, then playing it by ear

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5 snacks I enjoy: chocolate biscotti, watermelon, mango, chocolate chip conole, and of course sex!

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5 songs I know all the words to: unbreak my heart by toni braxton, more than words by extreme, this love by maroon 5, sweet child o mine by guns n roses, majority of all korean songs.

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5 reality TV shows I've watched: real world, vh1's motormouth, newlyweds, american idol, cheaters

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5 things I would do with a $100,000,000: pay off all our bills, pay off all my mom's bills and give her some to put in savings, buy an investment property, go on a month vacation, put the rest away in savings

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5 locations I would love to runaway to: all the islands of hawaii, fiji, costarica, san tropez, johnny depps private island

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5 things i like doing: doesn't everyone know the answer to that by now?...hehe

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5 things i would never wear: turtle neck, stars on my nipples, bikini, shirts with horizontal stripes, strapless bra....cant seem to get enough support from those...umf!

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5 recent movies I've seen: sad but true.....i can't remember

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5 famous people I'd like to meet: johnny depp, the guy who plays Lucka kovach the croation doctor on ER, hilary clinton, richard simmons just to simply ask "why?"), a few korean actors

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5 biggest joys of the moment: i may be pregnant (havent taken the test yet so don't gynx it), my mom, my hubby, not having to work today, the airconditioning

Compare to others mine may be a bit boring....but hey i gave it a try....it was harder than i thought....

*Nothing Special*

So it's saturday morning, andI just got done cleaning the kitchen with lemon pinesol....I may have gone a little overbored with the pinesol....but that's ok, the whole house smells lemony fresh. Don't have anything planned for the weekend (we never do...my hubby's such a homebody). It's kinda sad to see myself turn into this *no longer knowing what's going on in the world person* I used to be so outgoing, and spontaneous...but what the hell happened? Is this what married life does to a person? Ok, I'm just going to let it all out for today.....because I can..hehe:

First of all..I'm running out of foods to cook, and frankly I don't want to cook anymore!
I'm sick of doing the laundry...EVERY F&*$(#* day..and then having to fold the clothes and put em away!
I'm really sick of cleaning the bathrooms!
Why do I have to do the dishes after every meal...when I'm the one that cooked the damn meal!
I'm sick of wiping the hardwood floors.... People have told me to get a mop, but I just feel better being on all fours...*wink wink*
Maybe I shouldn't complain...at least I don't have to mow the lawns (front and backyard) or wash the cars, or take care of the pool (in this tripple digit weather)

I guess I just needed to take a break and let it all out. Even my hubby tells me to sit still. I guess I'm just overdoing myself. We're inviting a friend over for dinner so I'd better start marinating the galbi! Be back in a little while! I still have a lot to share!

*So, What Was I Saying?*

What has it been, like a whole month? I can't believe I haven't blogged for so long. Sorry guys, but I truely have been pretty busy. Let's see, to sum it up.....my hubby came home from his trip, then my in-laws came and stayed with us for about 5 days (that's an entirely seperate post), then we went to Monterey (saw Larry, which made my trip worth it.....I *heart* you larry!).....and now we're back home and back at work..yuk!

It's been pretty damn hot out here...in the 100's, but thanks to our pool I no longer have a farmers tan, I'm all one color from head to toe! Love skinny dipping!

I have so many blogs to catch up on....I don't even know what's been going on with everyone. Hope everyone's been doing well...and thanks to those that have noticed I was MIA, and checking up on me. Always loved getting phone calls and emails out of concern! Anyhow...I'll be back with more posts....gotta get alot off my chest!