Nothing New, Just Me Rambling

Well, today is the last day of my time off from work......I will be going back to work as of tomorrow. I'm going to miss all the lounging around, scratching my belly, reading to the baby, sleeping and eating all day...oh and my korean videos. I know, I can still do all that, but it just felt good not keeping track of time.

Didn't do much today. Jhonnie and I went to Quizno's for lunch with a friend of ours. I finally found something I can eat and not have any gag reflexes. It was great! Guess, I know what I'll be having on a daily basis, until i get sick of it!

Since you guys are so much apart of this pregnancy experience, I though I'd share a pic of the little one in my belly. This was the first Ultrasound taken (remember I shared the gory details in one of my past Blogs). It was taken 3/1 and I was about 6 weeks. I'm now 11 weeks, and the baby is much more bigger (my tummy is getting huge). I don't have a recent ultrasound pic yet...when I do, I will post it on here.





Baby at 6 weeks. Ultrasound taken 3/1/05

Testing Out Hello From Picasa

I'm trying to figure out how to use Hello from Picasa....don't know what I'm doing. Anyhow, I somehow got one of our wedding pictures on here....gonna take me awhile to figure this out.... So there we are me and my hubby, jhonnie!


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Jhonnie and Barbara 12/18/2004

What Would YOU Do?

Ok, I know some people are not really into the news, but I've been thinking about the Schiavo story. You know the lady that has been brain damaged for the past, I think 7 or 9 nine years. Her husband wants her to die in peace, and her parents and family are fighting to keep her alive. The latest thing is how the they had the feeding tube taken out. Anyhow, the reason I'm bringing this up, is because I'm frustrated that I can't have an opinion on this.....and I ALWAYS have an opinion. When I look at it one way, I feel like her husband is just wanting a way out. I mean who can blame him, he probably would like to go on with his life....but Idon't think having her die is going to be the answer. But who has the right to play GOD with her life? I mean any parent would do anything to keep their child alive, even if the child was brain damaged like Mrs. Schiavo. IF it were me, I'm not sure what I'd want. I know I would feel hurt that my hubby was trying to let me go, but at the same time if it meant I would be in peace......well.
I just can't decide who's decision it should be....I do believe that the government should be kept out of it....but too late for that. Is it the husband's decision, or her parent's decision. What if it was you? Who would you want to making the decisio, when it came to your life? Us married ppl.....something to think about, no?

Weekend Summary

Here's a quick look at what my weekend was like:

Friday

I was REALLY pregnant sick....so sick, we couldn't go to Monterey to see the in-laws *wink wink*. Marinated some Rib-Eye steaks (the good ol' korean bul-go-gee way), and fired em up on the grill. Wondered how much fun Larry and the guys were having over at Grace's, while scratching my itchy stomache(cocoa butter's not helping with the itching). Took a hot bath with my hubby......he lit candles in the bathroom for me (he sure has been the romantic lately). The best part of the night......crazy, kinky sex! Had sex as we got into bed, had sex in the middle of the night twice!, and of course morning sex...ahhhh, morning sex....that's when I get control! We may not have had sex every hour on the hour, but I'm not complaining.....the kinkiness makes up for it (wild one that hubby of mine).

Saturday

Threw my IBM thinkpad out the window!!!!! What the hell is wrong with it! Jhonnie's been trying to fix it, but I give up....I think I need a new laptop! So instead, my hubby built me a desktop to use for the time being. Pentium 4 2.8, not bad, eh? We'll see if I can get used to using a desktop again.....it's actually quite comfortable. So, as my hubby was building me this PC (those that don't know, Jhonnie is quite the computer wiz), I decided I needed to go to the Korean market to buy some stuff, yeah right, I just needed an excuse to rent some more korean dramas, hehehehehe. Came home and parked my ass in front of the TV in the living room, and watched 3 whole videos of "Sad Love Story"(sul pun yun ga). Now, 1 video is like 3 hours long, so you can imagine how lazy my ass was on that day! I'm so addicted to those damn videos. Time for bed came, and I was actually kinda scared to go bed......I couldn't believe it but I couldn't hang anymore. I mean I was literally all sexed out. Me, all sexed out.....wth? Did we really get that crazy the past couple of nights?

Sunday

Got up early and got ready for church. It sure has been awhile since I actually threw some makeup on, and curled the layers in my hair....what an old lady, I've turned into. Our church had combined service today, for Easter. We had an interpreter next to our head pastor interpreting the sermon, and I know I shouldn't say this, but he SUCKED. Speaking from first hand experience, and since interpreting IS what I do for a living, I normally can't help myself when it comes to putting in my 2 senses....but jee wiz, this guy sucked. Now, granted interpreting a sermon is not easy, but this guy skipped things here, and there....made up things, didn't finish certain phrases......couldn't even concentrate on the sermon, cause I was too busy correcting old dude. After church, we went to Mcdonalds for lunch (how sad, huh?) I was craving a big mac, and I had to dip it in sweet and sour sauce.....mmm, yummy for my tummy! I hadn't had a big mac in like 2 yrs, let alone fast food. Anyhow it was good. We were on our way to the flea market till we got horny.....so we had to stop by the house for a quickie (I really do overshare, huh). Went to flea market, came home, ate dinner, did dishes, and decided to blog, before I pop my ass on the living room floor to watch another 3 videos of "Spring Day" (Bom Nal).

So that was my "didn't do much" weekend. I can't wait to hear the crazy stories of Larry and the guys's trip to Grace's. Tomorrow's monday, another week of work, my 10th week of pregnancy (couldn't leave my blog without mentioning the baby, heheheh), and lot's of blogs to read! Hope everyone's weekend turned out well!

Long Weekends

To be honest, I really hate long weekends....wanna know why? My in-laws always want us to go up to Monterey....and I just don't want to. Especially now, I mean, I'm puking like all day, hungry all day, but can't find anything to eat, discomfort in my sleep....and well you guys know the rest. Not only that, I just want to be at my home and be comfortable! The drive is only like 2 1/2 hours, but it seems like eternity.....and then when we get there.....uff! I love my in-laws, don't get me wrong......they just REALLY get on my nerves! Thank god my hubby doesnt read Blogs. So, I'm playing overly sick, so I can get out of going *evil laugh*

Anyhow, looks like larry, and the boys are heading out to So. Cal.....gonna see Grace and party.....hey guys have a soju shot for me! Several while you're at it. I had some good ass times living in LA....even though I don't ever want to live there again (no offense guys).....I miss how everything was so convenient.

So, I'm going to try and get in the pool this weekend ( now that it's stopped rainning) probably go to Barnes and Nobles to find a book on baby names, go to church on Sunday.......and catch up on some wild and crazed sex.....jhonnie's not gonna know what hit em this weekend....I'm talking every hour on the hour!!!! My hormones are crazy I tell ya....just crazy. I'm already a woman with a very high sexual drive...how much hornier can i get? He's gonna get it so bad he'' be saying my name out load in his sleep....ok I think im oversharring again.....anyhow, have fun everyone and hope to blog on Monday!

Grace made me realize....... I'm "prego" and loosing my mind

This is going to be me "venting" for the day. I mean I can only bitch so much to my hubby, and he can only take so much. So excuse me if I tend to sound a bit crazy....and I hope I don't scare anyone away from my Blog.

So Grace made me realize that yes, I'm prego, and I'm lossing it. I'm getting fatter, my stomache does not stop itching, and I'm being told not to scratch, because it'll turn into stretch marks. I can't figure out for the life of me what it is I want to eat (at like 3 a.m.) My clothes are getting tighter and tighter, my hands and feet have days when they swell up.........oh and the boobs, let me tell you........we all know I don't need help in that dept, so why doesn't my bra fit anymore? I mean it fits, I just look like I have 4 boobies! I feel car sick all day, my husband says he has to walk on egg shells around me cuz he never knows if I'm jekle or hyde (which kinda makes me sad, I've never been the moody type, I never even got PMS). My best friend's sister is comparing labor to pushing a watermelon out of one of your nostrals.....WTH? I am just freakin' out! or as Grace put it, "loosing my mind".

L O O S I N G M Y M I N D

I can go on, but I'm starting to scare myself. Other than all the... ehem "joys" or pregnancy, I'm doing well. I'm feeling more and more connected to this little one in my belly.

So besides the pregnancy, it seems I don't really have much to share......now that I no longer have a life =( I'm hoping to get off my ass, take some time off from work, and just pamper myself.....I keep telling myself to stop blogging about the baby in my belly, knowing it probably bores everyone, so rest assured....I'm going to try to spice things up a bit, and be my kinky crazy self again.......Stay Tuned

What Is Going On

So what the hay is going on with Blogger? And where is everyone gonna go to Blog? I would really like it if we all kinda stayed together....I've grown fairly attached to you guys!!!! I see Julia went to squarepants or squarspace.....what about everyone else? I know Xanga is free....and I've noticed that friendster has added Blogs to their site. Any ideas or suggestions? Someone also told me that Google has a good blog....anyhow done't leave me out! Hope everyone is having a good weekend! Blog soon!

Blast From The Past

I got a phone call tonight from someone I grew up with, and havent seen in over 14 yrs. Crazy, right? Back in my Vegas days (I grew up in Vegas before I moved to LA), amongst all of my friends, Lisa was kinda special to me. She has a younger sister, and younger brother, and I remember distinctly how much she cared for them. She was always watching out for them, making sure she knew where they were at all times, and being a little girl, that was something I wish I had....an older sister.

Anyhow, we reconnected through friendster awhile back, and she left me some comments on my Blog (on Xanga)...but we never talked. Talking with her was like we were back in time, remembering all the good old times, and how were were angels then turned sour...and then got caught up with what's been happening since. She's in LA now.....and apparently can't believe that I'm going to be a mommy. Anyhow, it made me feel warm inside, and I just wanted to share.....also apparently, I had shacked up with some chinese MOB guy from San Fran and am raising his kids or something.....that's what she last heard. Sorry to disappoint you, but nothing close to that. Jhonnie's not chinese or in the MOB...so @#$% whoever told you that....heehehehe. Funny how people can come up with the craziest things.

Didn't See A Thing

I had a doctor's appointment today....we were so excited....another chance to see our baby * me blushing* Unfortunately, Jhonnie was working and couldn't make it, but that's ok. So I got there, and sat in the waiting room for an hour and half. My appointment was at 9:45, but my name wasn't called til almost 11:15. It gave me some time to observe other "mommies to be". For the first time in my life I was the smallest one in the room.......I mean there were some ladies that were just HUGE. I'm prayin that I don't get that big, I mean the doctor telling me that I'm going to gain 30 pounds in the next 7 months is bad enough.

So, they finally call my name and I get weighed (gained3 pounds since 3/1, just what I needed j/k), gave a urine sample, got all normal results from the blood work, and yay, my blood pressure was normal! I'm not sure if I had mentioned this in my past few blogs, but that was a big concern with everyone. Since I got pregnant, my blood pressure has been really high, and I've been closely monitored. I was almost considered high risk pregnancy, but no more worries for now...big sigh of relief.

Anyhow, this time my ultrasound was done over the belly. I waited in aniticipation, eyes wide open, staring at the monitor.....but couldn't see a thing. The doctor said the baby has gotten bigger and seems to be doing just fine......WTH? I'm happy to hear that , but I'm like where do you see that? I cant see a thing. He said I'm still a bit too small to hear the heart beat, I can see it though, and a little to early to see a good image of the baby. Well that just sucks ass (I'm gonna be a mommy now, so Im going to have to refrain from using any profanity....I may need some help with that)....I've been looking forward to this doctor's visit so I can see a picture of my baby, and nothing.

I mean, I have 24 hour sickness, discovering everyday that there's another type of food that the baby doesn't like. Had a wonderful time in the shower this morning. As I was brushing my teeth, I threw up eggs....am I oversharring? I'm sick to my stomache ALL day long, can't get enough sleep, and I vomit eveytime I think I've found something to eat. My husband says he feels so helpless. But at the end of the day, we lie in bed and rub my tummy and it makes everything alright.....if being sick all day is making my baby stronger and healthier, then bring it on, I don't mind it at all, anything for the my baby in my tummy!

Only in Cali

Gosh the whether has been so nice these days out here in Fresno. We've been in the high 70's to low 80's......and we're still in the season of winter, can you believe it? Well, since the whether was so nice we decided to go to the lake this past saturday. Go to swim, have a bar-b-q, and just relax. I had made some potatoe salad, marinated some patties for our hamburgers, and had the sunblock ready to go. Boy were we in for a surprise.

So there we were dressed in shorts and tank tops....and can't forget our sandals, and off we go. The lake was like an hour drive, but I couldn't help but notice that we were up in the mountains...that's when I asked Drew (a new friend of ours) "why is the lake in the mountains?" I don't know if it's because I've always lived in or near a beach city, but I really didn't know that lakes were in mountains. Anyhow, as we got closer to "Shaver Lake", I started to see snow. WTH?

Well, we arrived to our destination, shorts, tank-tops, sandals and all........and saw that we were the only ones dressed for some fun in the sun so to speak. All the other families had on their snow boots and were having snow fights. But that's ok, cause I was a part of this group and I always know how to make the best of things. We unloaded the car, started the grill, and bar-b q'd away. We had a group of 5 and even though the lake wasn't what we excpected, we had a blast. The food was great, the sun shinning, and we played in the snow (dressed the way we were)....couldn't have asked for a better day! Only in Cali can you swim, and play in the snow at the same time! I love this state!

Baby Chicken

So my mom called to ask how I'm doing.....Told her all about my morning sickness, food I can and cannot eat, and the ultra sound incident...then out of no where she says," the baby's gonna be a chicken" HUH? What she meant was that the baby is going to be born in the year of the rooster.

Now, I'm not a fanatic of astrology or astronomy, but I do know a little when it comes to chinese zodiac. I hope I don't offend anyone by saying this, but I am not too fond of people who are born in the year of the rooster. So "roosters" (that's what I'll call people born in that year just to speed things up a bit) are picky, very stubborn, perfectionist, know no other way but their own, picky eaters, introvert.....and I can go on. Knowing that my little one is going to be a chicken (rooster) kinda makes me feel....uh... i don't know a little sad. I don't what my child to be like that. I mean, I don't really care what year the baby is born on as long as it has 10 fingers, 10 toes, and is healthy as can be. I just don't want my child to be anal. I plan on having a very close relationship with my little one (even better than the relationship I have with my mom)....i just don't get along well with anal people.

I know you guys are probably thinking "out of all the things to worry about" Huh? I'm also trying to think of names....we're not sure what the sex of the baby is yet (although I'm wanting a little girl SOOOOOOOOO bad), and we havent even thought of names. It's funny cause the baby is going to have both korean and english names..... I want to make it simple but unique.

Anyhow here's a web site for chinese zodiacs just in case anyone was interested : http://www.chinavoc.com/zodiac/rooster.asp

Nothing To Eat

Sorry, I haven't "blogged" in like 2 weeks.....I just don't want to get out of bed. I haven't worked in like 2 weeks either. I don't know if I just feel lazy, or if I'm just tired. I do know that these past 2 weeks, I have literally slept all day, and that's wierd, because I'm not one to need a lot of sleep. So, Im getting fat, and I hate it. I just don't understand, I'm only 7 1/2 weeks, and why is my stomache gettng so big...WTH?

I'm having a hard time eating, and everyone knows that eating is never a problem for me. I can't eat rice, and being Korean that is sooooo hard. The simple smell of it makes me puke, I can take a few bites, utill I'm forced to run to the bathroom. This little person in my belly has wierd taste. It eats everything that I don't. For instance, I've never really cared too much for fruit and vegies......but the little one LOVES em. Just like Daddy, I guess. When it comes to the fruit, the little loves sour fruit, I've never been able to eat sour stuff. I guess it's good that the baby likes healthy stuff, and they do say you're body craves what it lacks.

When it comes to milk....let me tell you. For the past 3 yrs, I've been drinking fat free milk......thanks to Larry. So I can't really handle the other stuff, but it looks like I have no choice now. Doctor says, I need Vitamin D milk....yuk, it's so thick and rich.

So that's what's been going on with me these past couple of weeks. I can't find anything to eat, because I don't feel like eating anything in particular.....I am eating lot of sour fruit though, and if you can see my lips you'll know....they get all puffed up. I wish I can post the ultra sound picture I have from my first Doctor's visit...but me don't know how, anyone wanna show me how? I'd really appreciate it!

Be Still My Beating Heart

I finally went to the doctor's yesterday....had to lie and say I was there for my cold. (If I tell them I'm pregnant, my insurance won't cover me, sinceI just got the insurance). Started with the story of hot flashes, nausea, missed period, tender breast....oh and this yukie cold. That's when they decide to do the whole urine test....came back positive, they congradulate me...yada yada yada. However they were concerned because apparently my blood pressure was really high. A normal blood pressure would read 120 over 80....but mine was 168. So I was referred to a specialist for high risk pregnancies.....and that's where we went today.

So here we are (me & Jhonie) sitting in the doctor's office. Had to answer all these questions regarding family medical history. After a short meeting with the doctor, we get send into the room where they do ultrasounds....I was excited until Jhonnie says,

J: what kind of ultrasound thing is that?
M: what do you mean?
J: Well I always thought they put some cold thing on your stomache and rub a little device over it.

OMG......that's when I realized I was about to have a vaginal ultrasound....HELP! Then the doctor walks in and says I'm due for a papsmear (sorry guys if I'm oversharing). The least he could do is talk to me while he's scraping the walls of my uterus....

Ahhh...so the paps over, and Jhonnie is no longer sick to his stomache.....my poor husband, didn't know what he was getting himself into. Now time for the ultrasound, I'm all clenched up, and the doctor tells me to relax, Jhonnie's holding my hand (I felt I was giving birth already!) My eyes are shut and I'm in so much discomfort....until Jhonnie says,

Jhonnie: Look. Look at the screen.
Me: What is that?
Doctor: The flutter is the heart beat.
Me: Heart beat? Already?

And we just sat there for a second. It's just so weird to actually see the baby's heart beating on it's own. I never really though about all those small details. That's when it hit me.....I'm scared! How am I going to deliver this baby and raise it? I'm still a kid myself! But then again, I can't explain how I feel now, after seeing the heart beat. I'm happy ..... I'm scared....I'm a mess, or is it the hormones? I start the prenatal vitamins tomorrow, and I hope I'm one of the lucky ones that don't get too sick while taking them! Anyhow....gotta pee, anbd blow my nose. Talk to you guys soon!

Caught The "Bug"

Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm back from my trip....but I'm sick. I think I caught that chest and head cold that's going around......I hate it!!!! I can't even take any medication cuz the baby. The past couple of days, I felt pulsating pain all the way to the bone....I haven't been this sick in years! Oh and my nasal congestion is another story, I'm ready to rip my nose off! I have to keep switching sides in order for one side to clear, and for the orther to get clogged....

So anyhow, the business trip with Honda was great. The plane ride was horrible, but aren't they all? Not much happened on the trip since it was business, so not much to share. Just glad to be back and looking forward to catching up on all the blogs I've missed.